I've hinted at it here and there, but figured I'd let it out.
 I am only on here very sporadically, and it seems like ONLY when I need advice or help, and haven't really offered anything myself to contribute, but my little girl, (8yo), I call her my "shadow" as she goes with me EVERYWHERE,  was just diagnosed with Cancer a couple of weeks ago.
It is a hard blow to deal with, and I am just mad at life in general.
While at the same time, in the blink of an eye, my life has changed 180*.
I can't even go out to my shop as I get physically sick, because she ALLWAYS goes out there with me.
I am dealing with it little by little and I am finally back to kinda working on the jet, as all she has known all her life thru me has been, Impala's, HotRods, Choppers, and DragBoats, and the boat will be the fastest fix to get her involved again when this is all over.
It is still extremely hard to just get myself out there do do anything.
She doesn't know yet what's wrong, although she knows something is going on, so my wife and I have to keep our composure in front of her, to not alarm or scare her. Once we find out, what kind, the severity, and the cure procedure we'll explain it to her. I am not a crying type of guy, so in front of her I don't cry as she would want to know what's up, but is tell you, that while not around her, I have Never cried so much in all my life!!!
Don't know exactly why I dumped this out here, as I don't really know anyone, but maybe that's why, I can't be "judged" on the internet??? Or because there doesn't seem to be as much drama here as on the other FEW sites I'm a member on?? Again I don't know?
Well I've let it out, and still feel numb, she is just so innocent and pure, it's just not fair!!
Sorry for the downer, just wanted to talk.
Going to head outside for a bit and clean the hull a little just to occupy my mind. I moved the boat to my driveway, as far away from the shop as I could, as I just can't work in the shop yet.
Thanks for listening, Ken

Ken I'm newbie here but I can't read this and move on with out saying that your little girl will be in our prayers

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Thanks guys,
 Wasn't really expecting a response, but really do appreciate your thoughtfulness!! My little girl IS my world, and I guess I just needing to speak my mind with other than a family member who has the standard response of, a hug, telling me it will be alright, and telling me to let it all out.
I realize they are just trying to help, but sometimes it's just "too much", if that makes sense, without me sounding unappreciative!!

Teach her to hold the camera steady, check her lighting, and to edit Daddy throwing tools.  Because we really like pictures around here.
Prayers coming for you and yours.

Speechless... all I can say is You, your daughter and your family are in my prayers.


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Thanks again guys.
 Up and can't sleep, she goes in to have a bone marrow sample removed at 9:00am tomorrow. Third operation to get a sample of some sort from her in the past 2 weeks.
I'm going in to work at 4:45am like usual, but leaving work at 8 to get her there, and the wife and I will stay there till she wakes.
I just kinda walk around like a zombie in a haze!!
I'm a welder at work, so when the bell rings, I'm on my toes, and have my shit together to get a great product done, but at home, with no boss on my back, all I do is look at her, or walk around in a fog/haze.
No appetite, went from a 6 pack or so of beer a day to not a drink of any kind in almost a month. 
I've got 5 other kids, (and they are really helping us too), and 5 grandkids, but this little girl is "my baby girl" and the one I'm closest to!
Washed out the boat (will be replacing the stringers) and did a little 120 grit sanding, but just wasn't into it today!!

That's just terrible news man, I'm sorry to hear it. You know that kids are the strongest out of all of us though, they have the ability to bounce back from a lot of things. I'm hopeful that your little girl is able to weather this little storm that's happening in her life. You've got to be strong for her and keep her positive and fighting this. Good luck to you man, thoughts and prayer for you and yours.

Ken,

My family and I are praying for you. Keep up the good fight!

Jeez, you are all pretty amazing! Thanks, guys, and now GALS too!!
Sitting here in the waiting room, she's going for a CT scan and PET scan, then the Marrow retrieval.
Lots going on in this little girls day.
I wish I could show her this, so she would see how many people are thinking of her, but since she doesn't know the TRUE severity of what's going on, I can't. But when we find out and she finally knows, I'll be Shure to show her this.
Thanks again SOOO much EVERYONE,

most all of us have kids here,
 we read your words... 
 and feel your pain.

 stay strong

X2

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I couldn't imagine what ur going threw not would I wish it on my worst enemy, I have two kids and I would do anything in the world for them. We as in ur entire SCJB family are here for you day and night. If there is anything we can do just say the word and in time being we are all keeping ur baby in our thoughts and prayers daily!! Stay strong brother and keep us posted.


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Ken

Any updates? You guys are in my thoughts and prayers today.

Mark


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x2 on that
how is the baby girl doing


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Here's her stitches from where they took out some of her bone to biopsy. While it may not seem like a big deal, that is a real cut/ slice out of my little princess!!!

I'm also taking this pic to my tattoo guy, and am gonna have it tattooed in the exact same place on my ankle.

Going to get a t-shirt made that says "boys dig girls with scars!!" For her also.
 
She's extremely concerned that people won't like her with a scar that big.